The Mind Of the HalfBreed

i know....and i'm sorry. i wish there was something i could do.

ah Remi. i know. and its alright. i told her i wasnt gonna fight about this, but i told her if she doesnt want me to stay, than i will go to the court about living with my dad. She told me she wouldnt give up easily, and i told her i would stay down here if it killed me -just a figure of speech that time,i swear-

She told me that if i stayed, i would go to Polk County Schools.

I told her that once my dad had custody of me, she could say nothing of where i go to school.

so its being difficult at the moment. i think it will be ok though... *hopeful*

XxRenesmeexxCarliexX wrote:ah Remi. i know. and its alright. i told her i wasnt gonna fight about this, but i told her if she doesnt want me to stay, than i will go to the court about living with my dad. She told me she wouldnt give up easily, and i told her i would stay down here if it killed me -just a figure of speech that time,i swear-

She told me that if i stayed, i would go to Polk County Schools.

I told her that once my dad had custody of me, she could say nothing of where i go to school.

so its being difficult at the moment. i think it will be ok though... *hopeful*

I hope everything works out...

.....................RIP Josh and Hunter.. may they be happy

I had a friend die, and another i knew decently.... and i knew the one that got arrested... sorry i havent been on for a few days... its been rough......

i'm sorry...my grandmother is not doing so well ether, and she is about to die we think...

i know what you mean...

yeah... alot of loss going on right now... *hugs you* itll be alright
......

*hugs back* and you too.

My darling.

Audrey:Hush now, because i know they are looking for us... through the streets and the corners, in every house, ready to kill us, or mock us at any moment. My love, i know you want out of here, i know it was bad enough with your mommy when they would make fun of you because she was gay, i know it hurt.. but you cant defy who you are inside, how you feel about me... Baby listen to me alright, i dont care what they say, a million brusies, cuts, beatings, i wont care, i'll go through them all for you, i swear...

Shae: You swear you love me, because i love you and i cant take much more of this pain, not the physical, that i can handle, just the mental.. I can't lose you, i love you just the same a man loves a woman, and they want us to die for so.... why cant they just leave us alone... why do they have such problems...

Tommy walks in with a gun

Tommy: Ahh what do we have here? a couple of the schools Lesbos!!! We checked your house, so we figured since it was empty, you'de be here with your little lover. *sneers* Well, lets see what the little gang has to say about that.

The rest of Tommy's gang walks in. and they begin beating Audrey and Shae

Shae:Please just stop!!! what have we done thats any different than what you do?!!

Tommy:Girls kissing girls... hmmm... not real appropriat down here ya know... lets see ya kiss one good time, come on we've seen it before! *laughing*

Tommy puts pistol to Audreys head

Whole Gang including Tommy: KISS

Shae and Audrey look at each other and lean in crying. Audrey brushes Shae's hair out of her face and smiles

Audrey: *wispers* Hush now love, i will always love you... remember than my morning glory.

They kiss and Audrey is pulled away from Shae by the hair.

Shae looks at Audrey and Tommy with wide pleading eyes and whimpers helplessly at the love of her life

Audrey: *wispering* Shae...

Shea: *screaming/pleading* No please she has done nothing wrong kill me kill me!!!!!

Tommy: *laughs* No

Bang
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This is a dream i had the other day, i have had it several times in the last week. It has become a frequent nightmare, and i know why... In case many of you havent read my signature it is Destiny♥'s Anna or something like that... Well... I am a lesbian, and i am living in one of the most (literally) Anti-Gay states in the USA...

My mother is a lesbian as well.

If people at my mothers work knew she was gay, she would litteraly lose her job because of it. If you are in the army and they find out you are gay, you are immediatly discharged, no matter the great service you were doing unto the country. Several people are killed every year because of them being gay.

Even more commit suicide because of the phsycal and mental abuse bestowed onto them by several Anti-Gay communities..

Why am i saying this??

I do not want to change your beliefs,

but,

I do want you to think about what affect bashing on the gay community does to them...

I read a poem recently.....

here it is:
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.




This is only half the poem.

Next time you see someone who is Gay/Lesbian/Trans./Bi whatever there loving think of something..


There are so many qualities that make up a human being.. By the time you get through listing all the things you admire about a person, what they do with their Private Parts should be so far down on that list, its irrelavent......

Just food for thought

Love,
Des

Life is in transition.

I've noticed nobody gets on here nymore.
Its quite sad..
which makes me kinda wonder why i still get on here...
cause the magic of the site is gone...

This site is officially dead,...

For the most part. I think I'm the only one who even still gets on here.

I still come here on a rather frequent basis, but there's not really a whole lot of conversation to take part in, you know?

We should start another RPG.

I suppose. I'm just hoping that the other users all check their e-mail soon and decide to come back on here. :/

Me too.

You guys should just find more people.

Twilight is like a cult now. There are millions of fans.

Go advertize and get some.

I pretty much hate Twilight now, so it's hypocritical for me to come on here anymore.

3)
After taking my shower i looked around picked up Kiki. I looked over to Ty and kissed his cheek.

"Thank you so much for helping me she is all i have left"

"I know Z, but i'll help you through this i promise" ty replied to me.

I looked around and stared in the beautlful blue eyes of my baby sister. It all made me think about what i was going to do. Should i seek revenge, and if i do, than how am i going to do that when i have a baby to take care of. I knew school was no longer an option, and if i ran away, the with kiki, would i raise her as my own, would she call me mommy, should i tell her about our mother and her death, what should i do, im so lost i dont know what to do anymore. and as i sit here and look in these blue eyes of my sister, my daughter.

This will work, somehow.

"I have a plan" Ty Says.
"Lets run away together, and raise her as if we were her parents" Ty says

"Ty. this could work.. lets pack our stuff, lets go"
"Cliffhanger"