Words borne of broken lips

Lol. Well I wish you luck with your situation. Sometimes you just have to make a decision and go with it, even if it might hurt someone, I guess...

yeah but im so afraid of falling and getting hurt....

I don't really know what to tell you about that... Sometimes it's worth the risk and sometimes it's not. But you already know that, and I'm sure it's no help.

It's been worth it so far for me, though.

I know lol..... i think im gonna just tell him how i feel... and if he doesnt like me back than oh well

The worst that can happen is he says he doesn't feel the same.

true true ,, idk we'll see,, hmmm.... maybe i will stay single, you never know with me =] so you and JareBear (lol thats what i started calling him and now everybody does) how have you two been lately =]] good i presume lol

We've been doing pretty great. =) I just got home from tubing at the river with him a few hours ago.

Collide - Skillet
We have fallen
We have fallen again tonight
Where do we go from here
When they're tearing down our lives?
When all they want is
When all they want is
For us to live in fear
How long can we hold on?
Can we hold on?
Hold on

There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive
When all you can do
Is hide from the fear
That's deep inside of you
Something, something, something
Something, something, something
To hold me close when I don't know
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive

We are healing
But it's killing us inside
Can we take a chance?
When faith and fear collide
We can make it
Step out and take it
We can't live feeling so numb
How long can we hold on?
Can we hold on?
Hold on

Awwww omg send me pics sometime princessa479@yahoo.com

So as of five minutes ago, I am now in an extremely weird mood. And I realized that I have an excruciatingly large number of blogs. *counts* Six! I have six blogs. And I actually use all of them. How sad. Especially since I STILL find the time to write on paper like a journal. Man, I need a life. Now I'm blogging about blogging! What the crap?!

Anyway, it's been a while so I figured I should post here. I haven't really had much to say lately, because nothing's really gone on. I hung out with Jared pretty much all summer. Now I'm in school, which keeps me relatively busy. My mom and boyfriend keep freaking out about my health, and I assure you, I'M FINE!!! Ugh. It gets pretty annoying sometimes, but they care, and I know that... Hmm.... I'm not friends with Kelly anymore, which feels a little weird, but overall, I do believe it's for the best. I've kind of drifted from all of my friends lately now that I think of it. It's just another phase I'm going through, I suppose. I've noticed that I'm getting older and things just keep feeling weirder, so yeah. Does anyone actually read these things? I wonder.... *shrugs* Oh well. It's fun to write them anyway. I guess I like talking just to talk.. >.> That's probably not a good thing.

Haha I'm the only person typing in the room.. I'm in my fourth period, which is college algebra, and we can't start our work until we get our disks which will be a few days. So we just sit here on the computers. Fuuunnn... Well, hopefully I won't be sitting here much longer. I hope to be able to go to the library or crash Jared's fourth period every day instead. But whatever happens happens. At least I have internet here! Except there's no myspace or facebook or DeviantArt and whatnot. But I'll live... >.>

Grr I suddenly miss my friends again.

The stupidest things happen sometimes. And people do the stupidest things. One minute, I'm being greeted with a cheerful "Good morning!" and the next I'm destroying the heart of the person who said it for no real reason. I don't understand it. I don't even have a reason for it. But I left. I got scared and I ran. He just kept saying, "Please don't do this...." And I didn't listen. I walked away. And I can't go back. I hate myself so much for it. I miss him more than you can imagine, and I still love him more than anything.... I can't believe I did that. That's all I can really say... All I can really do is sit here in stunned disbelief. I still just... Can't fathom actually leaving. But I did....... And I ruined everything. Out of fear.

I'm so, sorry sis. I know it hurts trust me.
I'm here if you ever want to talk.

dont say you can never go back... Angel im dating Dustin again, and you know more than anyone the crap that happened with me and him...
Hun,
I was scared too alright. i still am... no matter if its afraid of being hurt, or its just being paranoid... anything at all that could be possible. you cant let it control you when you love someone ...you have to go back. you have to he loves you and you love him. and i swear to you that if you dont your gonna be unhappy with everyone you ever date again. i mean it... it wil never be the same, make yourself happy again hun. you two need each other and you know it....

Love always your sis,
Des

We started dating again at the end of that day.

And he broke up with me on August 31st. And now I don't have the option of going back. Because he won't take me. And all I really have to say right now can't be said on this board due to profanity rules, so F*** LIFE!

Ugh! And. Today was our three month anniversary.

Happy Anniversary, hun. *shoots self in the face* I hope it goes pleasantly for you, too.



Hahahahahahhaha.



....I love you....



Ha. But what does that matter, right? I'm replaceable. Disposable. Screw you. All of you. Everyone I've ever called a friend or loved or cared about. Where are you now, huh? Not. here.

...And that's my fault.

Hey I'm here for you, you know.
I know this all hurts I really do, and I'm here if you ever want or need to talk I wish I could help more than that though.
I'm praying for you Angel.

babe...

Wow....
thats harsh...

your going to talk to me about this .

no lie you really are.

and i am always here...
I know i dont get on as much as i should but i try everytime i am in homeroom.... and you know i love you sis...

i hope evrything is ok with you at this moment ....

Its just J. being J.

Im mad now... i had no idea!

Wow...

i guess that proves how much i really miss huh??

I haven't told anyone, so you didn't really miss anything.

I haven't even been in school in a week.

because of what happened???????

when you comeing back??!!!???

Angel, i know you don't like me from what i can tell, but if i can say anything its this:

I'm sorry that your going through all of this. I'm sorry i can't help you with it. But if you need someone to talk to(and this time without having the person(me) being in a bad mood) I'm here. I promised i would stay your friend, and i will. Just remember, everything happens for a reason...I just wish that there was a better way for me to explain it or to help you, but i can't....

I need to tell you something when you have some time ok?

you came back to school thank god you had me worried sick! lol

I love you babe.

and its nice you know that you and Levi are friends...

so either way ..
you need to come talk to me at school one day
I miss having you here with meh to talk to

I'll see what I can do. =)

My signature is depressing.

Florida.

Lost friends.

Stupidness.

You suck.

Facebook sucks.

Happy posting, everyone.

Wow! I didn't think I would ever see you on here again.